Each year as the leaves start to change color and fall in preparation of the cold winter ahead I am struck by their beauty. Suddenly I’m living in a world full of colors that weren’t there before – welcoming in the cool Autumn breeze as the seasons change once more. October has always been my favorite month, and now it holds this dramatic mix of beauty and sorrow. You should be three now – each Fall reminds me of your birthday and leads me to wondering about how different my life would be if you were here. If I’d been able to hold you in my arms, instead of losing you red like the falling leaves. Continue reading
Disclaimer: This story contains some graphic descriptions of my experience with miscarriage.
Three years ago today I was sitting in the emergency room – waiting anxiously – not knowing if the child in my womb was alive or dead. Just waiting – while a child died inside of me. The waiting seemed like it took forever – my emergency, did not look like an emergency. When all the while – my emergency was death. Continue reading
December can often feel like a time of chaos and pressure, there are so many things to be done, bought, and made that it can be easy to feel overwhelmed even with the beautiful things. While all the celebrations that December holds are wonderful, fun, and meaningful – there is just no way to do it all. I want to give you the grace today to know that you – fellow parent – you do not have to do it all. Continue reading
Life is chaotic – time is short – money a myth. The balancing act of supporting all the important relationships in your life is tricky. As a mom I know I have to focus my time and energy on supporting positive relationships with my children, to foster their friendships with their peers, foster their family relations, and take time to be intentional with them. By the time I put my kids to bed at the end of the night – I am worn out. Continue reading
From the moment I found out I was pregnant with my second child I knew that she was going to be completely different from her older brother. Strike that. From days before I could even get a positive pregnancy test I knew things were going to be different this time. Continue reading